Two months into life after graduation and more or less six months into looking for a job life has not been what I originally planned. How come? Simple. I still don't have a job. All of my future plans are anchored on the initial boost that first paycheck will give me, along with the key to fulfilling materialistic desires and more esoteric ones. Pressure is coming from all sides for results. A few keep faith in me, many won't give me the chance. At times I have been known to be infinitely patient when executing my plans, even if most of the time I tend to be impatient at more regular things, such as waiting in lines. I hate waiting in long lines.

But with all plans, something's always bound to go wrong. I may have to drastically adjust them according to the present situation, but my pride is telling me to stick with it for as long as I can. I want to prove to my family and friends that I am well and capable of taking care of myself. I've already done it, it's only a matter of doing it in front of them.

Everything is in order, except for one problem.

Quote for the day: "Like a misery that keeps me focused though I've gone astray, like an endless nightmare I must awake from each day." ~ Metallica - That Was Just Your Life

I got this from Andy, and with the load of serious blogposts I guess it's hightime I put in something with a little less weight. XD

 

1. A picture of you in your room. - Eto nung bagong kuha ko yung flagship ko na HD na si Commorragh, named after the Dark Eldar city sa lore ng WH40K

2. A picture of you posing with someone you don't actually like. - Wala eh, since I avoid having my picture with people like them in the first place haha.

3. A picture with a former crush. - This is the closest thing I've got haha. Hulaan ninyo na lang kung sino diyan crush ko haha.

4. A picture of you very drunk. - Wala.

5. A picture of you with a parent or two. - Me and my mum, Grade 6 graduation ko. XD

6. A picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday. - Basta trip manglibre ni Gabo ng Yellow Cab, holiday.

7. A picture of you from your younger years. - No comment HAHAHAHAHA

8. A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits. - ELECLIT Potter Project, yours truly as Severus Snape.

9. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera. - Marami, yun nga lang eto na muna haha.

10. A picture you might have edited to make yourself more attractive. - Attractive? Maybe. Edited? Nah.

11. A picture of you and a team or club you’re in. - tander~ TANDER~ TANDER!!!!!~ TANDERBERDS, HOOOOOO~

13. A picture of you showing off a new haircut. - NEVER ako nagpalit ng haircut. Hairstyle? Maybe. Haircut? No no no no no~

14. A picture of you truly being yourself. - Kahit banlag ako diyan, this is from one of the days where I felt genuinely happy.

15. Your most recent picture. - Sinusubukang makunan ng picture ang balbas, bigote at pispis bago ipaputol ng mga nakatataas.

16. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous. - Basta kasama ang TANDERBERDS, ridiculous ako.

17. A picture you’re tagged in on facebook that you aren’t actually in. - Wala akong FB haha.

18. A picture of a time in your life that’s over, but you wish it wasn't. - It's me wearing Brader Kurimao's Comi Hat. It signifies my time in college as well as my time in Netopia, which might as well be the best 3 and a half years of my life.

19. A picture of a time in your life that’s over, and you couldn’t be more thankful that it is. - This was taken when I was still in highschool. As I've stated in several entries, I'm thankful of the things I've gained during that time. But when I think about it I couldn't be more happy that that period is over.

20. A picture with your oldest friend. - Picture namin ni Ate Carol nung debut niya.

21. A picture with your newest friend/s. - Galing sa huling libre ni Juan bago siya bumalik ng Singapore. Ako kumuha niyan so technically I'm still in that picture lol. XD

22. A picture of you when you were anything but happy… - Obvious ba? Haha. XD I think I was brooding over a particular ex-bestfriend at the time.

23. A picture of you that you had no idea was being taken. - Galing ito sa nung nag-strike kami versus Netopia at ginawa naming internet cafe ang Gokongwei.

24. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are. - Christmas Party noong 3rd yr. ako. Wala pa akong kamuwang-muwang sa dadaanan ko sa sususnod na taon.

25. A picture of you in a fashion “DON’T”. - Wala. Besides I'm always in a fashion 'don't'. I wear clothes where I can feel comfortable with.

26. A picture of you in a swimsuit - whether you love it or loathe it. - Wala. Pramis. XD Besides kapag nasa beach ako parang nasa bahay lang ako, shorts at tsaka t-shirt lang.

27. A picture of you taking a shot / chugging a beer / downing some. - Wala.

28. A picture of yourself that you hate. - Grade 6 graduation photo. Hanggang ngayon gusto kong hanapin ang nagpa-pose sa akin ng ganyan at durugin siya ng pinong-pino.

29. A picture of you with someone you love. - Kaming dalawa ng Andy ko. Haaaay kakakilig~ :3

30. A picture of how you’d like the world to see you. - Being awesome in awesome poses like this. XD

31. A picture that describes how you’d like to spend every day. - As long as I have peace mind and spend time with the people I love, ok na iyon.

32. A picture of a time when everything was changing. - Frosh year namin, when we were still assimilating MicroSmith2. Ako yung naka-green polo with the black bag strap.

33. A picture that makes your heart hurt. - (More like rage, actually.)

34. A picture that makes your heart smile. - The only way you could get this many TANDERBERDS gathered in one place ay kung merong manglilibre ng Yellow Cab.

35. A picture of one of the best times of your life. - From our EPIC LASARET in Bukal na Tipan in Rizal. Epic scenery and epic bonding with friends. We were having so much fun and laughing so hard throughout everything we ran out of laugh on the way home, seriously, literally.

 

I guess that's it. Enjoy. XD

Quote for the day: "Believe in yourself. Not me who believes in you. Not you who believes in me. Believe in you. Who believes in yourself!" ~ Kamina to Simon, Gurren Lagann

Currently feeling: pusi

4 years in college
1 year ang delay
6 units ang binagsak
6 units ang binawi
2 beses nagshift
1 beses failed shift
1 barkada ng mga barbaro
2.726 ang CGPA
'Di na mabilang na basted
1 'di pinalampas na pagkakataon
4.0 sa finals ng INTEORG (Ms. Tana), pero 2.5 final grade
90% sa finals ng EUROFOR (Sir Molmisa), pero 1.5 final grade
Mga 'di mabilang na paghihinayang

Lumangoy sa Ilog Taft
Nag-GODLIKE sa DotA
Natuto mag-Day of Defeat: Source
Natuto mag-World of Warcraft
Tumambay sa Microsmith 2
Tumambay sa Netopia
Sumigaw dahil masarap sumigaw
Nagpaalis ng mga babae dahil sa kakasigaw
Nagcut para maglakwatsa
Nagcut dahil nakakatamad yung subject
Nagcut dahil nakakatamad yung teacher
Nagcut para sa pag-ibig
Nagcut dahil pwede pa magcut
Nagcut for the BROmance
Kinutya ang Ateneo
Kinutya ang La Salle
Natuwa sa mga taga-St. Scho
Natuwa sa mga taga-St. Paul
Nag-thesis
Tinamad mag-thesis
Natuto magcommute ng malayo
Kinabahan kay Sir Molmisa
Kinabahan kay Sir Baquiran
Nanghinayang at 'di nakuha si Sir Robles

At mga 'di na matandaang kung anu-ano pang alaala.

Kolehiyo.

Sabi nila high school daw ang pinakamasayang parte ng buhay mo, kasi daw pagdating ng college gaguhan na at kanya-kanya.

Nagkamali sila, ibig sabihin magaling pala ako sa gaguhan at kanya-kanya. Sa lahat ng pinasasalamatan ko nung high school ako eh gusto ko siyang kalimutan. Kung dahil ba 'yon kay Jillian, o dahil sa sakit ng ulong inabot ko kay Generosa Amor, o dahil sa malabakal na kapit sakin ng pamilya ko, hindi ko alam. Pagdating ko ng college ay parang bumukas sa akin ang mundo, at simula noon ay mas gusto ko nang nasa labas ng bahay kaysa asa loob nito. Hindi kasingtaas ang mga marka ko sa kolehiyo noong high school ako, pero hindi ako nagsisisi, kahit minsan nanghihinayang. Natuto akong mabuhay, kailan mo ba mamasamain 'yon?

Ngayong malapit na ako magtapos na kolehiyo natatakot uli ako. Nung magtatapos ako ng high school natakot din ako dahil mawawala ang kinagisnang buhay. Ngayon, parang ganun din, yun nga lang alam ko kung anong naghihintay sa akin, isang mundong walang patawad sa mga hindi nagtatagumpay. Wala akong magagawa kundi ibato na lang ang lahat sa hangin at sumugod, patuloy na uusad ang kasaysayan kahit hindi ka kasama.

Malapit na akong matapos sa OJT ko, malapit nang matapos ang thesis namin, malapit na akong magpaalam sa kinagisnang mga haligi, malapit na akong magpaalam sa mga napamahal na kaibigan, malapit na akong lumusong sa isang panibagong mundo, malapit na akong magimpake at magpatuloy sa biyaheng ito na kung tawagin ay buhay.

Quote for the day: "Show me a fortress and I'll show you a ruin." ~ Captain Eddan Bourne, No. 2 Assault Company, Silver Skull

Currently listening to: judas priest
Currently feeling: stinky stinky

It seems I go on and post something when there's something important to post, and this is one of those times. Valentines is fast approaching and of course I'd like to give something simple but sweet for my love. I found this poem surfing the net and I like to share it and dedicate it to my girlfriend, Andy.

 

El Alfarero
Pablo Neruda

Todo tu cuerpo tiene
copa o dulzura destinada a mí.

Cuando subo la mano
encuentro en cada sitio una paloma
que me buscaba, como
si te hubieran, amor, hecho de arcilla
para mis propias manos de alfarero.

Tus rodillas, tus senos
tu cintura
faltan en mí como en el hueco
de una tierra sedienta
de la que desprendieron
una forma,
y juntos
somos completos como un solo río,
como una sola arena.

Andy, you can ask me for the English translation if you want, or you could look for it by yourself. [smug_face] Happy Valentines dear. *kissu*

Quote for the day: "Emperor show mercy to the fool that stands against me, for I shall not." ~ Warmaster Demetrius, at the outset of the Salonika Crusade, 733.M38

Currently feeling: sbk

Jesus Christ. How long has it been since my last entry? My thesis was and will be eating me alive for the majority of the term, and all in all in was a very interesting term for one reason or the other. I remember my wishes from the past year and now I shall recounting them to see if they got granted.

• The continued good health and safety of family and friends. - For this overall my family and friends are still intact and breathing, although in the field of good health someone very important to me finds this somewhat a luxury as her resistances to sickness isn't as good as we all want it to be. I hope that there come a time in the future that she be more resistant to sickness, but for the meantime we must trudge on and face whatever comes.
  
• Continued good fortunes in the academic field - With the results I garnered this term I really consider myself lucky to have the good grades I got, with the 2.5 for Thesis Writing 1 getting a special place in my heart. XD My grades are quite good in comparison with my past two terms, which have been abyssmal to say the least.
  
• Continued hegemony in Netopia EGI Taft - We are still the reigning hegemons in our mighty home, but the years have eroded our authority with the loss of our regulars. New and insolent challengers appear to claim our throne but we stand steadfast to repel this n00bish onslaught.
• For the coming Metallica album to be epic - Death Magnetic IS JUST FUCKING AWESOMEZOOORSZOSRSOZSSS!!!11! But I do have my gripes on the album. It carried some of the "rawness" over from St. Anger, which makes itself apparent with Lar's drumming and Hammett's solos. But this is a strength as well as a weakness as the production is somewhat lacking and Hammett's looked like he was drunk or high or something when he was recording the solos. But overall a VERY kickass album and a welcome addition to Metallica's already epic discography.
• For Devil May Cry 4 to be epic - Alas, DMC4 did not live up to the expectations of the hardcore following because DMC4 catered to the mainstream audience and casual gamers with the addition of a new character in the person of Nero with overpowered mechanics and basically gave Dante a diminished role having only around 7 missions of the total 20. Although it brought something new to the table like the Exceed system and on-the-fly style switching I was still very disappointed with the game. DMC4 deserves an entire entry but that's for next time.
• To finally find her - All I needed was one chance. And I got it. And I capitalized. I finally found someone who dared to see me behind the mask and see me for who I am. And this time, I'm not going to waste this opportunity to share who I am with her, and her with me.
  

Overall, 2008 proved to be an epic year and for the first time in a long while, this is one holiday season where I'm actually happy. Cheers to 2009.

Quote for the day: "It's the nexus of the crisis, and the origin of storms." ~ Metallica - Astronomy