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So after my overnight stay at Andy's house she handed me a little challenge, 'Trial Separation' she called it. We would not communicate to each other in any way, shape or form for 3 weeks. It was originally a month but I negotiated it down to 3 weeks since we won't have the time to meet if it were a month since our term would end. It wasn't the first time she suggested it to me and I had always turned it down then. This was because I was fearful that something bad might happen while we were separated. This isn't to say that I no longer afraid. On that contrary, I'm still very much afraid of losing Andy, espcially now that we're doing this. But for some reason, I feel fear and excitement at the same time. Of course I'll be thinking more of the circumstances we are in now, but we agreed to write a blog entry everyday until we meet again, after which we will read each other's entries.

Today was just another normal day. Go to class, play in Netopia, go to class, play some more, then go home. My professor for GENDERS didn't show up, so woohoo for the free cut. XD The only thing that pissed me off today was the incompetent xerox lady at the 2nd floor of our library, inside the periodicals section. She was so damned slow it wasn't right anymore. Other than that it was like any other day. I wonder how Andy's doing?

Quote for the day: "You are not prepared." ~ Illidan Stormrage

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So fine, I wasn't able to write an entry yesterday. XD I'm writing this in Netopia btw, I'm supposed to go home early so I can start on my part of our EUROFOR project. But, the weavings of the universe always find a way to delay me, my friend was treating us to some Yellow Cab and of course, I wasn't able to resist. So here I am waiting for my friend so we can go home early enough for me to start something.

Last night Andy was online, but of course we didn't talk, as per the rules of our challenge. We agreed that we could use our status messages to act as a ploy to get the other to give in, but that didn't happen. I miss her a lot already.

What am I afraid of? I'm afraid that I might lose her. Why am I afraid? Now that's gonna be a lot of answers. Because I can say she's the unpredictable one of our pair. She is the one who's not yet ready to enter a relationship, therefore opening the window for others to take her away from me. But even more than that, I'm worried that I might not do enough to make her stay.

How sweet it will be when she gives me that genuine yes, since I would've gotten it because she was genuinely ready and, somehow I'd like to think that this time, I got it right.

Quote for the day: "If you really love me, then darling don't refrain. Or else I'll just end up walking in the cold November Rain" ~ Guns N' Roses - November Rain

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Today I can feel the drag of the term on myself and all my classmates as today was very much a lazy and offbeat day. This will very much be the opposite of things starting tomorrow, as I will devote my entire weekend to finishing school work that will be due next week. EUROFOR on Friday, GENDERS on Saturday, and RESMETH on Sunday. Whoop-dee-fucking-doo.

Today was a pretty normal day, although Sir Molmisa did give us a pep talk of sorts since we were soon to graduate. It reminded me of how much a nice guy he really is. Other than that I'm starting to feel all drowsy all the time again. I can't think straight and I'm sleepy all the time. I need that vacation if I'm to recover properly, almost there damn it.

I miss Andy, I really do. If I don't do something else to keep my mind occupied, it'll eventually wander to her. I wonder how she's doing, if she's still taking her breaks, if she's gotten sick again, if she misses me too. I hope I can last the three weeks, because this is driving me nuts.

But of course I carry on, because I know at the end there'll be someone waiting for me.

Quote for the day: "I'm blind not deaf." ~ Illidan Stormrage